the dark side

Em was a little frustrated when she got home..

Em: arrrgh! what?! this is part of my project for mother's day and you ruined it!
Jay: you know what Em? When you get mad like that you get closer to the dark side.
Em: noooo!
Jay: yes, that's what happens when you get mad..

Convos in the van #7

Random question from Jeremiah on the way home from school..

Jay: mommy, does heaven look like this...with houses and stuff?
Me: good question, Jay! I'm not sure, but when I dreamt about my grandma everyone was at a park.
Jay: hm. was it a message from an angel?
Me: ya, probably from my grandma.
Jay: so an angel put a message in your dream box?
Me: hmm, I guess so :)

Jackpot

I saw in the news today that the guy who won the mega millions jackpot of over 400 million finally claimed his prize. I guess Jeremiah overheard me tell Jenner about it cause after his bath he asked, "if we win the jackpot can I get the Star Wars Lego thing that I want?" I told him if we won the jackpot he could get ALL the Star Wars Legos! So later he added this to his night time prayers, "Please help us to win the jackpot so I can get my Star Wars Lego toys.." hahaha.

Halfway there!

So today I am officially halfway through our fourth (& last) pregnancy!! I've been feeling ok, with some nausea here and there and a lot of tiredness! I feel bad cause I haven't exercised at all this time around, but Jeremiah, Emma and Nico keep me busy. Nico has started to climb EVERYTHING! He even climbed out of his crib today! He's definitely tiring me out AND growing too fast :( 

Anyway, I've been able to feel the baby kick for about a month now and today Jenner got to feel him kick for the first time! :) my favorite part of pregnancy is feeling the baby move around.  It's our special bonding time... I eat, then he thanks me with a kick. I poke my belly and he tells me he I woke him up with a kick back :) fun fun fun until my ribs are involved. Haha.

update

Haven't been here for a little over a month, so I just wanted to catch up before so many things happen and I get too overwhelmed to blog about it.  Lately I have a real bad memory, but some things that happened since the last time I posted a blog.. I enrolled the kids in a new school (super sad about it because right now they go to my old elementary school and I love their classmates and the parents, but at the same time I'm excited cause they get to meet new friends and public school will be a new adventure for mommy and the kids.  Hopefully everything goes smoothly and the transition is easy), I turned another year older this month, we found out baby #4 is a boy, we got our dog neutered and licensed (so I guess we ARE keeping him) but now are battling a flea problem :( and, umm that's all I can think of right now.  :/

So, I haven't mentioned on here prior to this post that we are expecting baby #4 in August of this year!  It was a total surprise, but we are still super happy and excited!!.  It was so weird because before we found out, the older two kept asking for another baby and I would joke with them tell them, "oh no. that's crazy! there's already 3 of you! you guys are already crazy!" Then all of a sudden Emma would mention something about having another one, Jeremiah would tell her, "no no no, that's crazy! we're not having another baby! there's already 3 of us!" By that time, Jenner and I had already known about the new bun in the oven.  When we told them about the new baby they thought we were joking.  They're super happy though and always talk to my belly :)

people

Jenner was off early today, so after we picked up the kids from school we all went to the mall to get Emma some dress shoes for her first Father/Daughter Dance tomorrow.  After walking around, the kids got hungry.  As we were fixing the kids plates, Jeremiah looks around and says..
There's a lot of dark people here!
Me: Jay, you don't have to say it like that. Everyone is a person, just say 'people'.
Jay: I know that, mommy.  Have you ever talked to a dark person?
Me: Aye! yes, Jay.
Jay: who?
Me: aye, why are you asking that?
Jay: (looks at me suspiciously)  I don't think you have...

Smh. this kid!

Life

I find it disheartening, maybe even a little frustrating when someone gives up on life. When, even at a younger "old"age, they say, 'I'm ready to go'. Really? Are you really ready to go or are you waiting for someone to tell you all the reasons you're NOT ready?
When I leave this earth I want it to be because God tells me that it's my time to go; I don't want Him to say, "well, I gave you that chance, why didn't you take it?"
I know, of course, that when God calls us, he calls us..but before I had kids I used to think to myself that it would really suck if I died because I so wanted to experience having kids..being pregnant, giving birth, teaching my children, watching them grow, go to school, graduate, get married, have kids of their own and even watch the whole cycle of their own kids getting married; me becoming a grandparent..heck, even a great grandparent. I don't understand why one would not strive to live to see the next phase if given a chance. Sure, these chances have risks & might not work, but, for me, I would regret not trying.
You can't tell other people how to live their life or what decisions to make. In the end it's their choice to take that chance that God has given them or to just give up. But why give up? There's always more to experience, more to see, more ways to make a difference, more chances to live life to the fullest...